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♥ Nizamdead
♥ Adeq Ah-een♥
♥ Adie Nov 19
♥ Diyanah KC
♥ Dellila
♥ Dyrawr
♥ Dee; kaysiao
♥ Elly Chan F21
♥ Faz Maniac
♥ Fatwan Nov 19
♥ Fanakechykk♥♥♥
♥ Feycka Montello♥♥
♥ Hani Beybey♥♥
♥ Hidayah Helia
♥ Insan
♥ Idah Ryn
♥ Jocelyn F21
♥ Leana♥♥
♥ Liyana BA
♥ Mar
♥ Nadd
♥ Pikka
♥ Regina♥♥♥
♥ Yantoi
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If i knew who stole my lil sis hp,
i wish for a damn bloody corrupted body will happen
to him/her soon.
No life is it ??
ARGH !
Adeq, take it easy beybey .
Im here .
Pls tc of ur hp carefully &
dont ever trust a someone that easily :|
Nothing to do, stealing ppl's property .
Think its fun for u guys isit ?
F U C K Y O U !
Go to hell losers & cunts .
Hope u guys die die die !
My DEATHWISH & so from my lil sis toosh .
damn damn, bad horrible end of the month . pfft ;
Should u ever feel alone.
If finding times hard to bare.
U can still count on me.
Know i shall always be there.
U shall be in my thoughts.
If u are hurting, i feel it too.
It is my friendship sincerity.
I shall forever share with u.
There each step of the way.
My support u can depend.
I will listen if u need me.
With love ur forever friend.
:D
to my very awesome friend ;
Yesterday, boss from a company called LUSTRE
just phoned me.
I was uber excited in a ways that im hoping for the interview
to be held soon [:
&& met nina, my lovable nenek number 2!
AAAHHHH!
I MISS HER SO DAMN LOADS!
SO MUCH THAN ANYONE ELSE.
:'(
crying .
gahh !
But still, i mish all of my beauty babes so damn loads,
except this two clans, not included.
blurgh "-.-
They dont deserve our respect yea .
We went to eat burger king, she blanja me, aiyoyo.
Talk about lustre retailing & all stuff.
haha.
Having fun with her yesterday.
No regrets.
Hope to meet her again.
WOOEE !
& we did saw diayan & bf toosh.
What a coincidence yaw ^^
kewl kewl.
Otey, till here, wana go out !
TATA ^^
im chilling :D ;
I entered through your mouth.
After that it just got dark.
I took the stairs circling ur spine.
Took me to the piano that produces cries.
I played the keys & smiled as the music played.
I laughed & felt like we did that day.
As the keys went out of tune.
I heard a voice i never knew.
The song it sang was never you, never you.
Im being punished seeing love produced from a tv screen.
But that isnt me though it looks as if its u.
Who is she and why am i hidden with no escape.
I felt bad for the days i couldnt replace.
Out on the road u said u would always wait.
On the other side of the world i layed in hotel rooms.
I can see u layed in her bed as u lied to her & said.
I feel ur something more then life.
She promised she was urs as she took the stairs down ur spine.
I ran in a panic the stairs became static.
Shocking my knees i fell to my feet.
I ran in a panic this plan has gone tragic.
I SAW THE ECLIPSE READY YAW!
HOPE THE REST OF U SAW IT TOOSH [:
^^
im goooood ;
Thats all i can say yaw ^^
& My life sux to the core nowadays.
Bring me some miracle cann?
Hopinnng [:
sux. fuck. get lost ;
Im sick today.
Thus alot of things in my head right now.
About courses & attachment.
Families, fwens, my relationships.
Haiz.
How i wish my late grandpa was here.
He knew the best of me :[
Now im sitting in my balcony, writing about what should i do next.
Dearest give me alot of choices.
He has the point though, thanky love [:
So, now i make up my mind.
Will ask nina about the interview for IA.
If i get selected, its gooood cos atleast one
problem is accomplished.
& about the hair fashion interview, will take it
& hope they accept me even i hvnt graduate yet but still,
ive graduate around march.
IM TAKING APRIL.
Still have time right?
pfft, yawn.
Having fever still.
Haiz.
Even i took my meds, still the same.
GAHH!
Pray hard for me.
So i can go through all this hard times.
& dearest, thanx so much for helping me eventhough u dun have any time for me at times.
Appreciate that alot [:
Eventhough we are complicated at times, but our heart
wont ever change kann ddy?
:D
As u know, i lup u right?
Im in temper, just layan me cos u noe, i never meant to hurt u
in any ways or with words.
B just want us to be like old times.
But cant.
Now we had to be seperated as in do our own things.
Not asking for break up ehx dear?
bwekx.
& dun be scared, cos i aint like last time.
Now, i wont be easily falling in love with anyone cos,
my heart is taken by u.
Deeply, ilysm dear :'(
Trust me.
U too dun think negative aites.
U know ur my everything right now kann?
So, yea!
:DD
Otey till here.
free me ;
1.Where did you kiss the last person you kissed?
-in a house.
2 .What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?
-apply for another nitec course & am free from this bloody shit course!
3. How many TRUE best friends do you have?
-2 .
4.Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
-depends on my mood.
5.Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing?
-special & its kiyooooot. hees
6. What are you excited about right now?
-getto meet my dearest bf later :DD
8. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
-cry over the truth
9. What’s on your bedroom floor right now?
-my teddy? hehe
10. Who’s the last person you got into a argument with?
-my stupid dad, till now -.-
11. Do you trust people?
-some of them.not all.
12. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
-move to my dearest appartment & build our life there [:
13. Your favorite number?
-14.
14. Could you go a day without eating?
-are u serius?! haha! ofcos not fool!
15. How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
-that much, believe me.
16. Do you like anybody right now?
-yupyup. i do. my fwens, dearest, mom & cousins.hehe
17. When was the last time you had your hair cut?
-last week.
18. Would you rather be mad or sad?
-mad.
19. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
-yes,ofcos. heart pain man! haha
20. Whats the best feeling in the world?
-to have ur dreams come true.
21.Are you close with your mom?
-yes. yes i am [:
22. Are your parents strict?
-dun even say strict. more over than that. cb!
23. Do you tell your parents everything?
-wanted to but no chance to say cos that bloody dad just shoot out on me. duh.
25. Name some fears you have: ghost & lost.
26. Does the thought of marriage scare you?
-abit la. hurhur.
27. How many kids do you want?
-3 atleast.
28. What’s your favorite season?
-rainy day.
29. What’s your favorite color to wear?
-deeppink, red or black.hehe
30. Who was the last person in your bedroom?
-no one :DD
31. What are you doing today?
-going out to apply my course & hang ard with my bro lup & bf.
35. Do you get bored easily?
-haha, yes!
36. What’s something that someone can do that really bothers you?
-scolded me like shit, shouted at me anyhow, DAMN!
37. Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
-yes yes yes!
38. Do you wish you were famous?
-not at all.yulk!
39. Do you make a wish at 11:11?
-nop.
40. When you go to the beach do you swim or lay out more?
-lay out.
41. Who’s the last text message you received from and what did it say?
-fauzi. he said that his damn freaking mad about his course.GAHH!
42. What are you freakishly obsessed with?
-tops & bottoms!
43. What’s your favorite song at the moment?
-love to be loved by you :]]
44. Do you like going to the mall to shop or just shopping online?
-go to the mall & shop.on9 shopping?not my type -.-
45.Can music affect your mood?
-jyaw!! cn make me more hyper yaw!
46. What piercings do you want?
-lips.
48.Have you ever been in a cave?
-nop.
49.Ever eaten a bug?
-eeww gross! noooooooo!
50. When will you hang out with the person you last kissed next?
-when im free. hehe. && thats only with my bf yaw.no one else aye?!
51. Are you in a good mood?
-yupyup ^^
53. Would you rather skydive or bungee jump?
-bungee jump!
54. Do you like snakes?
-brrr, nono.
55. What’s one place you would like to visit?
-england!
56. Do you like waffles?
-superb! yes!
57. Does the number 23 have any significance to you?
-erm, nop [:
58. Be honest, do you like people in general?
-yeayea.
59. What color are the walls in your bedroom?
-light pink.
60.Do you think starbucks is expensive?
-yea.
61. Are you named after a family member?
-nono.
62. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass or fail?
-pass.
63. Wanting to tell someone something?
-hees, erm, ahuh ahuh :p
64. Last restaurant you went to?
-hayyat hotel.
65. What is the weather like today?
-sunny & cooling.
66. What happened yesterday?
-talked about our attitude matter [:
67. What would you do with five million dollars?
-would donate it to those who in need,shopping,bought a ferrari, bought a big hs,give some to my parents.
68. How many hours did you sleep last night?
-8. haiz.
69. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?
-not at all yaw.
70. Who’s the last person that you felt was stalking you?
-dearest, before we stead.haha
71. Have you ever been on your school’s track team?
-aha.nop.
72. Have you cried today?
-siao! for what!
73. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
-totally did [:
74. Does it annoy you when someone says they’ll call, but never do?
-totally yes! grr!
75. What did you dress up as for Halloween?
-if i were a christian,i would drees up as a catwoman thats been dead for several yrs with sticking out eyeballs,slimmy bloody yucky blood jucing out from my eyes.haha.
Have fun watching the movie called,
BEDTIME STORIES !
hees.
&& had kiyoooooot adorable
big eyes hamster toosh!
haha.
1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
-ahuh, it is. hees.
2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
-prefer the short party dress [:
3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
-oh my. im TOTALLY gona read it yaw. && smile with pleasure ^^
4. Group dates or single dates?
-single dates [:
5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
-yea, cos their not themselves. blurgh .
6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend?
-yea ofcos silly ^^
7. Is your hair up or down today?
-ohoh, up up! neber been down. always look gooood. hees.
8. Do you straighten your hair?
-nop. my hair is already natural straight yaw.
9. Favorite mascara?
-silky girl & avon .
10. Do you get your nails done?
-yea yea.
11. Small or large purses?
-snall. large for what. ppl think im rich arx?! haha
12. In your purse, what are your must haves?
-money la.bling bling~
13. Jeans or sweats?
-jeans
14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable?
-not ever. -.-
15. Do you text message a lot?
-lolx. HELL YEA! till my dearest get bored toosh. haha. jkjk.
16. What would you do if you got pregnant?
-ooohhhhhtey, im silent :|
17. What’s your favorite color?
-deeppink, red & black.
18. Heels or flats?
-prefer flats cos its easier to walk though.
19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
-abit & sometimes if the part is so damn romantic & touching. hees.
20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
-50%-50% arx.
21. Walmart or Target?
-say what??
22. Do you wear collared shirts?
-yesh, why?
23. Do you like preppy boys?
-eeww no! gross me out !
24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!?
-it ish but dun use to wearing it.
25. Do you own any big sunglasses?
-haha. nop. not tt fv abt it, but my mom does :D
26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
-1hour.
27. Do you like to wear band-aids?
-nop.
28. Do you like skater boys?
-kinda. lolx.
29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
-ofcos, my attitude [:
30. Gold or silver?
-gold gold!
31. Do you like to receive flowers?
-aww, ahuh ahuh :D esp roses.
32. Do you like surfer boys?
-not so la :\
33. Do you dress up for the holidays?
-yupyup. but dearest encourage me not to over dress -.-
34. Do you like to wear dresseses?
-ofcos la bodo! haha. im a woman.what u think i am?! haha
35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
-10.
36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
-not at all.
37. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
-yupyup, ofcos ^^
38. Do you like to hold hands?
-hees, lup to [:
39. What is the youngest you would date?
wont ever. but for this que la kann, 17?
40. What is the oldest you would date?
-20.
41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
-his looks. hehe
42. Is it hott when guys sweat?
-not really la.
43. What is the best feature in a guy?
-hot body, goood looking, nice attitude & romantic.
44. Do you like making eye contact?
-my all time fv ^^
46. Would you kill for chocolate?
-gila peh? haha. psl choco ponn nk kill ourselves. blurgh. jln da!
47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
-nop.
48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
-10.
49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
-haha, yesh yesh. i really do!
50. Do you yell a lot?
-on some occasions when im totally burning inside.haha
51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
-lolx. no way man!
52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
-erm, i think so. thats was the past ^^
53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
-not goood in writing but i do, once only ^^
54. What makeup could you not live w/ out?
-eye makeup.
55. Do you fall in love easily?
-to be truthful, yes.
56. Do you have cramps?
-ahuh, hate that.
57. Do you think you have the bestest friend ever?
-yes i did! they knew who they are & including my dearest, he was like my bestest bf ever :D
I hate how you complain,
I hate how you moan,
I hate how you groan,
I hate how you criticize,
I hate how you fuss,
I hate how you cuss,
I hate how you get angry,
I hate how you get mad,
I hate how you get up-tight,
I hate how you get pissed-off,
I hate how you get aggravated,
I hate how you get built up,
But most of all,
I Hate You.
i hate u alot ! ;
HAHA !
Stress sia!
Serious.
When i called her, cant get through & shes busy "-.-
Just my luck.
& partly, scared she dont want to accept me back cos i call her
late??
:|
hmm.
What would u think aye?
Just call her again?
ARGH!
GREAT OR WHATTTT ?!
Dad nagging at me yesterday, still in my mind thinking want
to call her or not.
Not listening to his nagging anw, duh!
Like what faddy said.
haha.
Sorry if im a lil bit crazey in the mind this days.
All my life was screwed up, SERIOUS SHIT!
Even my relationship, i screwed up.
Complicated & even worst, start fighting, its my fault like duh :D
HAHA !
Ok ok, i hate myself.
& now, felt like fading away with dearest.
Neh neh, cant be.
Think positive zyzy catwoman!
*i love him, must try ur very best to change aites? u can do it*
& one more thang, ppl start calling me a scene.
WTF!
Even my fs mate, FAZ MANIAC being label as that.
CB!
HEY U LABELS, listen aites.We arent a scene
like what u think we are.
A scene is way more diff & over upgraded than us yaw !
& scene aint have black hair FCUK!
Dont SUKA SUKA HAPPY HAPPY label us that aye?
&& to my bro & dearest, u know i hate to be call scene, pls
dont ever ever call me that.
Im just a normal slacking type with freedom in
me.
Not freedom in life, still had curfew!
DAMN!
HAHA !
How can i renew back my life now?YEA RIGHT , lecturer of BEAUTY THERAPY
just called me & i just ignore it.
Fcuk them la.
Malas la nak answer it.
haha !
WTH SIA ZYZY!
hmm, boredom strike ready yaw!
& crazeynesss in me toosh yaw!
:DDDD
Pls someone, SAVE ME from this horrible dream [its not, i noe] .
can i pls get over with this thang ?? ;
their old school, greenview sec.
Slack in their sci lab.
haha
Their teacher was SUPER GEREK LA CAN?!
&& theres this makcik, we call her "UMI" ,
cos she treated them like her own children.
So cwit. Zyzy start calling her that toosh.
hehe.
Today in their school, their having a sec 1 cca orientation.
Cool la shey!
But but still, there some guys staring at me, irritating "-.- .
Went off from there around 5.
We slack under the void deck & smoke.
hees.
Laughing here & there, tapau kfc with dearest.
Bought for him as his damn hungry, fhm2 jek la :pp
Imy darleng.
Then each of us go on our own seperate ways .
GO HOME LA!
:DD
otey2, nak bobok & dream about dearest batman.
teehee :p
i wana make up with u bby ;
Been waiting for so many years & today i found the prince
to reign my heart.
U changed my live so patiently
& turned it into something good and real.
I feel just like i felt in all my dreams,
there are questions hard to answer.
Cant u see.
Beybey, tell me how can i tell u that i love u
more than life.
Show me how can i show u that im blinded by ur light.
When u touch me i can touch u to find out the dream is true.
I love to be loved by u.
Ur looking kind of scared right now.
Ur waiting for the wedding vows.
But i dont know if my tongue's able to talk.
Ur charm is just blinding me like sunbeams on a summer stream &
i gota close my eyes to protect me.
Can u take my hand & lead me from here please.
I know they are gonna say our love's not strong enough
to last forever.
& i know they are gonna say that we'll give up
because of heavy weather.
But how can they understand
that our love is just heaven-sent,
We keep on going on and on
cos this is where we both belong.
love u more, HAHA ;
Cos hate ppl with last min cancel plan -.-
Just waiting to go out, then they say that the plan is cancelled.
Isnt that irritating?
Damn pisst ok?
Well, what to do.
Even my bf dun care about it at all.
Cancel or not, still the same situation for him aye.
& if the other two cancel the plan, only left the 3 of us,
still dont want to hang around isit?
haha.
can see by the way he act.
I think im a boring person thats why [:
he really doesnt care at all about me right?
Does he?
Im so sad man when i heard this news.
Well, whatever happens, just let it be.
Dun dare to say a word anymore.
Right now, my heart feels like losing someone ready.
Now i just dun care whatever happens around me anymore, i give up
in all.
Now u guys, dun expect me to be like the old me.
I will be giving a damn in everything now.
Want to hate me, go ahead.
Had enough of this hurt stuff, or anything la.
Just be dummy for my whole life.
:]]
thanx so much.
starting a new life ;
Turning all my thoughts to u.
I was without hope,
so dreams try to dull an inner scream.
But u saw me through walking on the path of air.
See ur faces everywhere as u melt this heart of stone.
U take my hand & guide me home.
& now im in love [:
U took my heart away when my whole world was grey.
U gave me everything & a little bit more.
& when its cold at night,
& u sleep by my side, u become the meaning of my life.
Living in a world so cold.
U are there to warm my soul.
U came to mend a broken heart.
U gave my life a brand new star.
& now im in love with u [:
Holding ur hand,
i wont fear tomorrow.
Here were we stand, we'll never be alone.
ily lovable [:
ur my new shining star ;
Well, suck up today.
Get to know that having a 3rd party now?
Wtf !
Babe, how many guys do u want
to flirt with?
& oh, i knew ur sucha a playgal aye?
& im not jealous ABOUT
U HAVING ALOT
OF GUYS, LIKING U.
HEY, cmon, i have my dearest
whom i lup so much.
& dont say such things to me.
alright?
I hate it !
GET LOST U MOTHERFUCKER!
ur sucha whimp ;