BOO-CHAK !!
This days was my very unpleasant day.
Its about my relationship thing .
Haiz .
What did i do wrong ?
I understand his prepaid has finished .
But he doesnt even call me .
Haiz. Called him yesterday, thought he will be much surprised
but then, his sounds kinda normal .
I felt lonely this days .
W/o his concerns .
I dont want to think so negative but sorry , it just struck my mind .
:'(
Had to meet faiz last friday cos i had no choice .
Need to share my probs with abg .
Atleast abg made me laughed .
But still inside, thinking about him .
Asking myself, "Did he still love me?" .
:'(
I dont want to show abg that im still crying inside .
Nowadays, felt like his fading away from me .
Haiz .
I dont want to judge anymore.
I knew i broke his heart & make him down by outgoing with boys
but that had settled .
:'(
I dont know what to think anymore .
Just scared i lose him .
Is he happy being with me ??
Alot of questions in my head right now .
I cant eat, cant even drink & cant even smile .
Did he ever think about me at this very moment ??
Haiz .


To dearest :


Just want to tell u that, im so sorry for letting u down .
I dont dare to judge anymore .
I felt like ur going away from me now.
U dont even contact me .
Arent happy with me ?
U sounds normal even when i called u .
& our anni is coming soon .
:'(
I hope we are doing fine by then dear .
I love u so much .
I dont want to lose u .
& am sorry if teared .
I cant keep it any longer .
My heart is broken , so broken till i felt this way .
Im sorry .
Im sorry .
Im sorry .
I respected u .
I will .
:'(
Just to let u know that , i wont let
our relationship fall dearest .
Ur my all, remember that :'(
If its wrong to love u , im sorry bby :'(
I still love u .
Haiz .



i cant live in the memory of our song ;

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