BOO-CHAK !!
Well, kinda sad when someone u love
says to his fwen that his life is boring .
It sadest me truely .
Even we are ok with each other .
Well, he did changed me, thats good, even it hurt me so much that night .
Can't even imagine how it feels when someone told u about ur bad side
from the past 1 year, & now he just told u.
hmm.
I appreciate it much .
Checked his comments, seems
my comments are dead for him, others he replied a.s.a.p.
As for mine, had to ask him to reply.
Well, up to him .
Whether which way he want to choose.
I dont want to control any part of his life anymore.
Yea, i know i have given up .
Im at fault, all was my fault .
Ive given him so much hope till his changing towards me.
Im so bad right now.
Maybe thats why im always sick .
Think alot mostly cos of me & him.
Our future .
I rather be gone than facing this such problems .
I cant even explain anything to him, he will react .
Its hard .
I will listen to him, but see how far we can go being together .
Its all cos of me, his life changing :'(
So no point for me to be upset, let him choose his path of happiness .
I promise i wont do anything harm, wont make any lame jokes,
wont be with him till 24/7 , wont disturb him everyday,
wont be msging him that much .
I promise.
Let him has his own happiness life .
His free .
I felt like im holding his back .
Im sorry :'(
Hope u forgive me .
Well just now at work, i fainted, luckily most of
my collegues helped me out .
Carry me to toilet, let me rest & stuff, they did worried about me.
I appreciate it alot u guys [:
Especially thanx to sasha, lyana, suki & jass for carrying me.
& to hafiz, thanx for ur mentos sweet for me to munch on,
& to zulkarnain, thanx for informing valerie that im sick.
& to whoever in the staff lounge just now, heard alot saying to me to
be strong & stuff, dun reli recognise ur voice, thanx so much guys .
I wont forget that, & to shaf shaf, thanx for making me laugh in the morning at msn ok?
^^
hope to know u more better .