Since im out of my old workplace, alot of things happened .
Alot of painful things happened recently .
I just cant bare with these tears i cried .Yea, alot of probs came to me this few weeks .
Even truthfully, doesnt have the mood to celebrate raya .
haiz .
I shouted back at people whom fight back with me cos i knew
alot of hatred inside me for long since im young .
If u guys really understands me, thats good .
Especially to dearest, i really understand him but i dont know how
to talk to him nicely sometimes .
I know much i had to really change my attitude starting from now.
Im useless cos im good in words not at doing .
Im praying so that my loves ones wont go away from me especially
dearest .
I learned my lesson now .
haiz.
No point to cry cos things have happened.
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Just really hope he forgive me cos everything that hurt me,
i have forgave him before hand [:
Cos i sincerely love him .
Whatever happens, just leave it to ALLAH .
I dont want to judge, cos i still believe, somewhere
in his heart, he still love me .
Its just his too follow with his temper & ego .
Hard heart at times & didnt know much how to express his love
towards me .
Thats why i still believe in him [:
& am staying strong cos i love him damn much
till i cant even move to other person to fall in love with .
Mummeh says, love is blind, be careful always, & i am.
But i know, now, his the only one in my heart that
i really really love the most
even we complicated things up at times.
I trust him .
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I will keep smiling even when im being scolded .
Cos im giving in now .
I dont want to hurt him, understand his situation .
He may look ok outside, but deep down in his heart, i knew
he need someone to share with .
Still que that is unanswered .
He still have worries in him, i know .
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Well, just want to say, i love him so much .
halal kan makan dan minum bby .
:'(
maafkan bby untuk semua dosa dosa yang bby buat dekat
u .
bby sedar, bby banyak menyusahkan u, byk menyakitkan hati u,
bby banyak cari pasal , marah2 u pon, u sanggup tak nak lepas kan bby.
bby pon rase gitu jugak, bby ikot perasaan .
bby banyak buat salah dekat u, bby mintak maaf banyak banyak :'(
bby memang bodoh , tak pakai otak sebelom cakap sesuatu .
bby cuma nak u tau, bby syg syg sangat dengan u.
u la satu satu nye, boleh tahan dgn perangai i
yang terok ni , u lah satu satu nye yang boleh berubah kan i, u la
satu satu nye yang boleh buat i senyum, walaupun kite selalu
gadoh :'(
bby kalau boleh, nak bersama dgn u seumur hidup .
bby nak sambut raya dgn u .
bby nak pakai baju raya pink dgn u & family kite .
psl bby tau, bby da tak cukup time lagi .
bby decided to go for an operation, tu pon dlm pertengahan bulan .
bby nak tengok u bahagia selalu .
maafkan i ok sayang ?
lepas u bace ni, msg i ok dear ?
bile da tak dekat singapore nanti, kirim salam ayah dan ibu dan abg
shamsul di sane .
ucapkan camat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin kepada sume keluarga u.
berhati-hati tau syg .
imysm, i hope u felt the same way toosh .
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papai sayang .
kirim salam dekat kakak dan ibu jugak bile u balik jb nanti [:
u u u u, i sayang u. i jadi sundal, sume pasal u :D